It’s really hard to find that perfect person. It’s rare to find two people in a happy, functional relationship. I think it’s hard enough finding someone you could love but even harder actually making that love work. Love is caring about one person and one person only. Love is finding pieces of yourself in others. Love is a codependency. Love is a partnership. Most of the time there’s always one person in the relationship who cares more..who tries harder. And that’s when people leave…that’s when people get hurt.
I think it’s easy to make a connection with someone but it’s not so easy finding a person to connect with on the same level as you. Most of the time it just doesn’t work because you want different things out of life…you’re at different points.I feel like for me I like to make love a game. I like to think of it as a learning experience, or a challenge. I love taking care of people and trying to make them into the best versions of themselves. I also like testing myself within the process and try to make myself better. What I’ve learned though, is that this is stupid. Love isn’t a game. And no matter how hard you try you can’t fix someone, they have to fix themselves. I feel like my friends and I end up liking the same types of people. The people that have yet to figure out life. The people who have not yet experienced real love or what it means to live. The people my friends and I go for are awesome people but more often then not they’re fucked up in some way. And in return these people have lower standards of life, they can’t be with only one person, they settle with how they live..always taking the easy way out, they spend their time at the bars getting drunk and waking up to a new face each morning…and it’s these people I pity. Because somehow they’ve gotten to this point in life where their self worth is so low they lost all motivation for themselves. And most of all I pity them because they’re afraid to love ..to truly love. Love to these people is having the upper hand..it’s the ability of getting a good lay..it’s having someone next to you who makes you feel like the better person. And that’s why these relationships don’t work out with those people. Rather than working together and bringing each other up you’re trying to tear each other down. Caring, listening, and talking is replaced with fucking, yelling and fighting. But somehow people like me end up falling for people like that and you want so bad to change their minds on what it means to love. It’s really hard to find someone on the same level as you. And it’s even harder to walk away from someone you love who you know is no good for you. I can’t wait for that day when I find someone perfect for me.